Is the audition process. Specifically that out of body moment in the MIDDLE of an audition where you suddenly are acutely aware of the INSANE thing you are doing (standing in front of room of strangers, people who could probably change your life, pretending to be someone even more insane than yourself) and asking them to like you. At that terrifying moment of clarity, there is no turning off the panic button. There is no getting back into the flow of the scene. You just have to do your best to make it through without looking like a total ass. And like, try to be “present’? 

But then you make the room laugh and suddenly you remember what you have always loved about the whole fucking dumb thing in the first place.